Learning to Trust

Learning about what it means to really "trust the Lord" hasn't struck me so much as it has in the last few weeks. We often exhort one another in saying that, but I've so little experience with the depths of what it really means. But lately, I feel as though I am battling fear, and winning, though I am not trying...... Is 30:15 "For thus said the Lord GOD, the Holy One of Israel,"In returning and rest you shall be saved; In quietness and in trust shall be your strength."

When dealing with decisions that may change the rest of my life, it's odd that I cannot get a pretty picture painted in my mind about what things should look like now, nor what they will look like down the road, the Lord graciously will not let my little mind go there. (believe me, I've tried......which if I was able to picture it, perhaps I would set my hopes in those things that 'might happen' that are good things but perhaps they might distract me and keep me from setting my hope in God Himself....hmmm......)

So, this sweet place where fearing the unknown is my greatest temptation, and its being overcome by God's turning my little mind effortlessly to setting my thoughts on the fact that my Father knows what He's doing, and it's like I hear Him say with great patience towards me - over and over, "Fret not thyself, Jennifer." And my heart is actually loving His command not to be anxious....... I am shocked at this....just baffled.
It is odd for me......since all who know me, know me as a "ready, shoot, aim" type of girl....waiting does not come natural to me. And that just makes this peace so supernatural.

It seems to be the rule that whenever God shows up - it always leaves me dumbfounded.....full of shock and awe......and wondering....why it has taken me so long to obey/see what I now see. (????)
I have nothing except that I love Him, I absolutely love Him.

God's Baby Girl - always,
Jennifer