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Wednesday, August 29, 2007

Proverbs 16:20
"Whoever gives thought to the word will discover good, and blessed is he whose trust is in the Lord"

Simple common sense -
(Just reminding myself)

1.) Give thought to the word in all aspects of life
2.) It's hard to do if you're not regularly reading God's word.
ie...lay aside some 'to-do's' to be in God's presence.

Thursday, August 23, 2007

Mercy

Sitting around Chipotle with my little brother and his wife Sarah shortly after Brent and I had gotten back together, we asked them what were some of helpful things brought up in pre-marital counseling.
The one that I remembered the best hit me today.
Jesse said that the BBC pastor told him that in their marriage when one of them sins against the other, the one who was sinned against has the opportunity to pursue the heart of the one who sinned against them.

At first I pulled a Frank.....and said "Wait......what?"

Because the last thing that I want to do when I'm butt hurt is go to the person who did it and show them love. There is this "Oh, I'll forgive them, but they need to do and say this and thus to win me back - then we're golden."

Though, after thinking about it recently.......that is not how Christ is with us.
When we sin, we get all sheepish and even if we want to go to him, sometimes we just meander about, looking at the cross out of the corner of our eye..........scared and sad that we did something wrong......wondering if it will be forgiven and our conscience cleansed....wanting it, but fearing screwing up again........

But God is the father in the story of the prodigal son. Waiting, watching....ready to forgive and runs to meet us when we run to him.........and he kisses our heads and throws a party because we have returned and repented. There is nothing to earn because we've received, Mercy.

Um...no wonder we're called sheep!?
Animals are funny.....my dog used to poop on the carpet when she was a baby dog.........and as soon as we came home, ZOOM - under the bed she went.....to hide.

My all-over-the-board point is that the counsel is beautifully reflective of Christ and his church.

When we screw up and hurt each other......the one in the wrong usually knows that they are in the wrong......and they are sometimes unsure if they can say the right thing or what to do to at all..........
So, the hurt one has the opportunity to overcome the evil with good and repay a blessing.
Saying something edifying and loving - soaked with forgiveness and acceptance so that the relationship is grounded in mercy.
I'm thinking that this will make for a blessed marriage....and rich and deep friendships.

I don't want to be one of the ones of whom it is said:
2 Tim 3:5
"having the appearance of godliness, but denying its power"

1 Peter 3:9
"Do not repay evil for evil or reviling for reviling, but on the contrary, bless, for to this you were called, that you may obtain a blessing."

Let us pursue the hearts of those in the church who hurt us.......and fulfill our calling.
In Christ Jesus,
Jen2

Friday, August 17, 2007

2ND post for the day - Couldn't help it.

SO many people ask me questions or insinuate questions like
"Where do Calvinism and evangelism meet?"
"If God has decided already who will be saved, why do evangelism?"

One main point that I should make is that the modern mission movement started by God-loving Calvinist-doctrine-loving people.
Surely, I'm still working out how prayer fits in, but I do know that God has ordained the end as well as the means to that end.


Acts 18:9b "Do not be afraid, but go on speaking and do not be silent, for I am with you, and no one will attack you to harm you, for I have many in this city who are my people."

My mentor and her husband love the Lord unlike anyone I've ever met. Their kindness and humility towards the friend, the visitor and the stranger is the most amazing thing to behold.
They are trusting the Lord who said that HE would be with them, and they believe at God has many people in Minneapolis who belong to God. I call them closet Calvinists......because they preach the bible and the Sovereignty of God straight from the word beautifully.

I read this recent update from about their latest ventures and....well, tried not to cry too much at work.........
Bit o'background:
Due to the firmness of the grip on the heart of James Mullen, the family started their missionary work prior to raising enough support even to make their mortgage payment.....talk about faith.....but wait, it gets better.
Below I retyped one of the articles from a recent missions update........yep, the one that made me cry. Good luck.

IT MUST BE GOD
Armed with fliers declaring that "Satan wants you to be ignorant; God wants you to know Him in TRUTH" James and a group from our church took to the streets of our neighborhood in north Minneapolis Thursday evening, 7/19 at 6:15pm. The purpose was to invite people to a service at the church that would begin at 7pm. Spontaneity marks the lives of many who believe here.

That was the inaugural meeting of "The Cross and the Community" an evangelistic outreach partnership between our church, Family Baptist (Girard Ave N and 22nd Ave)
and Christ Satisfies Ministries. This new ministry opportunity aims to reach those in our community who are out and about and bring them into the church for a time of hearing the truth of God's word, singing psalms and hymns and spiritual songs and enjoying fellowship and food. James and Pastor Lee will share preaching responsibilities with the focus being various aspects of Christ's work on the cross.

Unaware of how this approach would be received by people, we began to pray that the Lord would bless the meeting and bring at least 10 people from the community. We asked friends and ministry partners around the country to pray and appealed to the body at our church to be on their knees.

Just after 7pm with many fliers distributed and most of those from the church who had done the inviting returned and ready to hear the word, the worship time began and James headed up to the front of the sanctuary ready to preach about Jesus, the suffering Servant, prophesied about in Is 53. As he took the podium there were a couple of guests from the community along with those from the church, seemingly not the 10 neighborhood people for which we had hoped. Beginning to get discouraged, he bowed his head in prayer reminding himself that this was God's show and not his own and trusting the Lord could and would see fit to use His Word preached to convict and rescue sinners whether 1 or 100 were present. Upon looking up after his opening prayer, James was amazed to see many, many more people from the community filling in the seats in front of him!
Even some of the gang members/drug dealers that he ministers to throughout the week and whom he invited were sitting there in the church. "The Lord is faithful to all his promises and loving toward all he has made." Ps 145:33b
Between 15-20 people from the community were present along with our brothers and sisters for a total of about 40. Praise the LORD!

When the service was finished, the group retired to the gym for pizza. Many of our neighbors and people from the streets were able to talk with believers and ask serious questions about Jesus, sin, death and their own future. A teenage mom who was there approached James with a broken and humble frame asking what she should read from the Bible. Not only was he able to direct her to the Gospel of John, but he was also able to point her to an older woman in the church who walked this young girl through the scriptures sharing details about the saving Gospel of Jesus Christ. Before the evening was over, she came back to James with tears rolling down her cheeks to share that she had repented of her sins and received the Lord Jesus. God is so good, so gracious and kind. A young man from the streets who is pretty hard and tough talked with James afterwards and said that he would be back the following week.

With great rejoicing Jame, our pastor and all involved were blessed to be vessels of Truth in the lives of some of our neighbors in north Minneapolis.

This past Thursday, 7/26, at the second meeting of "The Cross and the Community" the Lord once again demonstrated His Love for men through the gospel invitation. Again, we prayed for many to attend the service and enlisted the prayers of others to that same end. With fliers in hand a group of brothers ans sisters took to the streets once more on foot and with vehicles.
James, along with another man and his wife drove one of the church's large vans up and down and in and out of the nearby streets handing out fliers, offering rides and inviting people young and old back to Family Baptist to hear about Jesus.

Near Lowry and Lyndale a woman, perhaps in her fifties, said that she would attend with some of her grand kids and asked James to come back and pick them up. When he returned she, a girl around 11 and several young children piled into the van. Her daughter, the kids' mom, didn't make it in time for the van ride but later showed up at the church having taken the bus to get there!! The group then went off to one of the nearby streets to a house where many young men and women constantly hang out. Several hopped in and a full van headed back to the church.
This time the Lord blessed upfront, and many from the neighborhood were there at the start of the worship time. As the upbeat strains of the acoustic guitar launched into "Jesus, My Only Hope." voices rang out in song to the King. "Come, let us bow down in worship, let us kneel before the Lord our Maker" Ps 95:6

James had the privilege of preaching again, this time on the doctrine of justification - our being acquitted and declared innocent in God's sight in addition to our being declared perfectly righteous - all through the sacrifice and work of Jesus Christ, the Father's gracious, indescribable gift to all who trust and believe. Hallelujah!
An amazing 56 people from the community who had no affiliation with the church were present!!
The time following the service was sweet as brothers and sisters were again able to minister Christ's love and the truth of God's word to our neighbors. The Lord was working. One homeless man who was pretty low in his circumstances expressed a great desire for change and intently listened with a tear stained cheek as a brother shared about the New Hope Center, a Christian-based recovery program which has a very strong biblical structure. Pray that he would submit to the Lord as his Savior and seek to put on a new life.

A teenage girl who rode along in the van with James and his group expressed a clear understanding of what had been taught. Pray that the Lord would move that knowledge beyond her intellect and into a saving knowledge and faith by the power of the Holy Spirit.

Warnings in the Bible - primarily FOR believers ?

I'm reading a book by Thomas Schreiner and Ardel Caneday called "The Race Set Before Us, A Biblical Theology of Perseverance and Assurance" and seriously, there are few books that will shut a person up.....this is one of those books.

To live the life of a Christian in light of the reality of heaven and the threat of hell is a joyfully terrifying thing. When God does not give you over to the sins that you would choose if left without grace, there is great need to rejoice and......to tremble.

The most potent little point made that I've been thinking about is the statement that the WARNINGS in scripture are to the people in the church.....as a means of God's keeping them on the narrow path that leads to life. Notice the address at the beginning of the statement: "brothers"

Romans 8:12
"So then, brothers, we are debtors, not to the flesh, to live according to the flesh.
For if you live according to the flesh you will die, but if by the Spirit you put to death the deeds of the body, you will live. For all who are led by the Spirit of God are sons of God. For you did not receive the spirit of slavery to fall back into fear, but you have received the Spirit of adoption as sons, by whom we cry, "Abba! Father!" The Spirit himself bears witness with our spirit that we are children of God, and if children, then heirs—heirs of God and fellow heirs with Christ, provided we suffer with him in order that we may also be glorified with him."

At the beginning of the book he points out a few different views that people have as far as perseverance and assurance.

The one, most destructive and deadly (in my little opinion) is the "Loss of Rewards" view.
The view has much more detail than this, but essentially it states that believers who professed Christ at some point in their lives and obeyed somewhat in their lives, will inherit eternal life, though they will lose rewards for not mortifying a certain beloved sin(s) that they continued in -while believing that God would simply forgive them of it.....also, their sin of omission (in not doing that which Christ commanded us, to "abound in love and good works"....."when were you hungry and we fed you not, or naked and clothed you not?.....I tell you truly, when you did not do it for one of the least of these, you did not do it for me."

And they will be banished with the hypocrites.

I think it is good to be quiet in light of our true desperate state before the Lord.......but as my bible study teacher said "The warnings are meant to affect you to stir you up to obey out of love and fear of the Lord, not to make you curl up into the spiritual fetal position"

May God bless you with fear and love and gratitude to Him today for the mercy you received today.....if you woke up believing AGAIN.....you have His grace with you.
In Christ Jesus.....7 years.....still shocked.....more so now than ever.
Jen2

Thursday, August 16, 2007

Sentiments.

How do we stay encouraged throughout our lives.......feeling as though your life actually matters and counts for other people and the hallowing of God's Name and the character building that results?

Lately, seeing the kindness of my fiance's friends in their unashamed love and gratitude for him as their brother.......has me feeling blessed and encouraged.
I know that Brent is not Jesus.......but certainly, I realize how God has given him a grace and compassion and sympathy that is supernatural.
Can a girl need ANYTHING more than that?
Is that not EXACTLY how Christ loves His church?

We fail and cry and repent.
He, hugs us and tells us it's forgiven......and that He's not going anywhere.
"Never will I leave you, nor forsake you."

We are stubborn and strong willed and hurt about something.
He, finds a way to get past the wall to penetrate the heart and in turn, we love Him even more.
"I will remove your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh."

We have a super hard day and grumble
He, listens well and brings fresh perspective - TRUTH to us.

We laugh and rejoice,
He rejoices with us.
"As the bridegroom rejoices over his bride, so shall your God rejoice over you."

May God change us to be more and more as a reflection of Christ and His church.
Brent, thank you for showing me Jesus' love and mercy toward me.......I love you more than Adam does. ;)

In the Love of Christ Jesus ~
Jennifer

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

Ten Marks of A Flesh-Pleaser

In looking around for some solid Puritan Sermons (because they are so dead on much of the time, blunt and get me jealous for the holiness of my own heart)

How can we tell if we are walking by the Spirit or by the Flesh ?

V. The signs of a flesh-pleaser or sensualist are these
(which may be gathered from what is said already):

1. When a man in desire to please his appetite, referreth it not (actually or habitually) to a higher end, viz. the fitting himself to the service of God; but continues on only in the delightful times of it.

2. When he looks more desirously and industriously after the prosperity of his body than of his soul.

3. When he will not part with or forbear his pleasures, when God forbiddeth them, or when they hurt his soul, or when the necessities of his soul do call him more loudly another way, but he must have his delight whatever it cost him, and is so set upon it, that he cannot deny it to himself.

4. When the pleasures of his flesh exceed his delights in God, and his holy word and ways, and the forethoughts of endless pleasure; and this not only in the passion, but in the estimation, choice, and prosecution. When he had rather be at a play, or feast, or gaming, or getting good bargains or profits in the world, than to live in the life of faith, and love, a holy and heavenly conversation.

5. When men set their minds to contrive and study to make provision for the pleasures of the flesh; and this is first and sweetest in their thoughts.

6. When they had rather talk, or hear, or read of fleshly pleasures, than of spiritual and heavenly delights.

7. When they love the company of merry sensualists, better than the communion of saints, in which they may be exercised in the praises of their Maker.

8. When they account that the best calling, and condition and place for them to live in, where they have the pleasure of the flesh, where they have ease, and fare well, and want nothing for the body, rather than that where they have far better help and provision for the soul, though the flesh be pinched for it.

9. When he will be at more cost to please his flesh than to please God.

10. When he will believe or like no doctrine but libertinism, and hateth mortification as too strict preciseness. By these, and such other signs, sensuality may easily be known; yea, by the main bent of the life.

~ Richard Baxter

Friday, August 10, 2007

TRUE Love, because it is from the book of beautiful truth....put into a poem to drive home the reality that "the steadfast love of the Lord is better than life."
Try not to weep your eyes out, those of you who belong to the Lord.....it's just that precious.

Like Gomer, "dark harlotry" runs in our blood. But God's love cascades over our crude lives. He makes us his wife, "blood-bought and beautified by grace."

The old man and his wife sat by
The winter fire and looked out high
Above the plains of Ephraim,
And saw around the last regime
Of Israel the shadows snake
Their way from east to west and take
Possession of Samaria.
"How long until Assyria,'
They thought, "would break Hoshea's rod,
And violate the wife of God?"
But strange as it may seem, the doom
They saw across the land left room
For hope. And when they looked into
Each other's eyes, as they would do
At night, they knew, as none could know
But they, that God would bend his bow
Against the charms of foreign men,
And take his faithless wife again.
They knew it could and would be done,
As surely as the rising sun
Drives darkness back unerringly,
And drowns it in the western sea.
They knew, because they had rehearsed
The tragedy and played it first
Themselves with passion and deceit.
"It's true that life is far more sweet,"
Hosea thought, "when it is lost,
Then bought again at dreadful cost;
And love grows strong when it must wait,
And deep when it is almost hate."

Such things as these he often said
To Gomer as they watched the red
And crimson echoes of the sky
Descend Mount Tabor's cliffs and die
In darkness far below.

And she
Would say to him, "Your love for me
Was like a mountain waterfall,
And I the jagged stone. Of all
The knives and hammers once applied
None made me smooth or clean. They tried,
But harlotry was in my blood,
Until your love became a flood
Cascading over my crude life
And kept me as your only wife."

They knew as none but they could know
What it would mean that long ago
The Lord allowed his love to swell,
And married faithless Israel.
The passing of the years now found
The children grown and gathered 'round
This night: Jezreel and Loammi,
Hosea's sons, and at his knee
Loruhamah. The room was sweet
With memories, and each replete
With pleasure and with ample pain.
Among the memories one main
Experience above the rest
Embraced them all. It was the best;
Indeed it was the mountain spring
Of every happy stream from which
The family ever drank, and rich
With hope. It was Hosea's love.
The children stood in wonder of
The way he loved, and Gomer too.
But this had not always been true.
Hosea used to say, "It's hard
To be a seer, and prophet bard.
The price is high when he must sing
A song of ruin over everything
In lyrics written with his life
And lose his children and his wife."
And so it was, Hosea heard
The Lord. It was the strangest word
A holy prophet ever got:
And every pointed precept shot
Like arrows at Hosea's life:
"Go take a harlot for your wife,"
Thus says the Lord, "And feel with me
The grief and pain of harlotry.
Her father's name is Diblaim;
He makes fertility with cream
And raisin cakes. He will not see
Her go without a price, for she
Has brought him profits from her trade.
Now go, and let her price be paid;
And bring her back and let her bear
Your son. Call him Jezreel. For there
Is coming soon a day when I
Will strike and break the bloody thigh
Of Jehu's brutal house, and seal
With blood the valley of Jezreel.
And after that, though she's defiled.
Go in, and get another child,
And make your tender face like rock.
Call her Loruahmah and lock
Your heart against all sympathy:
`Not pitied' is her name. No plea
From faithless Israel will wake
My sympathy till I forsake
My daughter in the wilderness.
Now multiply once more distress:
Hosea, go beget a son,
For there is yet one child to shun,
And call him Loammi, in shame,
For `Not My People' is his name."
Hosea used to walk along
The Jordan rim and sing the song
His father Beeri used to sing.
Sometimes the tune and truth would bring
Him peace, and he would pause and look
At all the turns the Jordan took,
To make its way down to the sea,
And he would chant from memory:

"Think not, my son, that God's great river
Of love flows simply to the sea,
He aims not straight, but to deliver
The wayward soul like you and me.
Follow the current where it goes,
With love and grace it ever flows."

The years went by, the children grew,
The river bent and Gomer knew
A dozen men. And finally
She left and traveled to the sea,
And sold herself to foreign priests
Who made the children serve at feasts
Until they had no shame.

And then
The God of grace came down again,
And said, "Hosea, go, embrace
Your wife beside the sea. And place
Your hand with blessing on the head
Of Loammi, and raise the dead
Loruhamah to life in me,
And tell Jezreel that I will be
For him a seed of hope to sow
In righteousness. Hosea, go,
The gracious river bends once more."
And so the prophet loved these four
Again, and sought them by the sea,
And bought them with the equity
Of everything he owned.

That was
The memory tonight, because
Hosea loved beyond the way
Of mortal man. What man would say,
"Love grows more strong when it must wait,
And deeper when it's almost hate."

Jezreel spoke softly for the rest,
"Father, once more let us be blessed.
What were the words from long ago
That gave you strength to love us so?
Would you please bless us with your rhyme,
And sing it for us one more time?"
"Think not, my son, that God's great river
Of love flows simply to the sea,
He aims not straight, but to deliver
The wayward soul like you and me.
Follow the current where it goes.
With love and grace it ever flows."
"And children," Gomer said with tears,
"Mark this, the miracle of years."
She looked Hosea in the face
And said, "Hosea, man of grace,
Dark harlotry was in my blood,
Until your love became a flood
Cascading over my crude life
And kept me as your only wife.
I love the very ground you trod,
And most of all I love your God."

This is the lamp of candle four:
A bride made ready at the door.
A shabby slave waits her embrace,
Blood-bought and beautified by grace.

~ Pastor John Piper

Monday, August 06, 2007

Low and Weak in Faith and Love

There is this 'love' that we have for others that allows us to delight in them......we like the way they express themselves, make us laugh, like similar things, think similar ways....we appreciate feeling as though we are on the same page as other people. To be and feel known and accepted..... We love to be loved this way so much and sadly........we expect it.....we think that we deserve love. That American mentality keeps us from seeing the depth of the preciousness of the gospel. If we were so WORTHY of love......than what God did in Christ HE SHOULD have done....I mean, cause we're "so great and all"
Someone get me a yak bucket.
If the love directed toward us is somehow obligatory, how could it ever produce the kind of humility that it was intended to produce?
Ez 16:63
"That you may remember and be confounded, and never open your mouth again because of your shame, when I atone for you for all that you have done, declares the Lord GOD."

Lately, I've been noticing more and more.......that it only breeds arrogance when we sinners get the mindset that we are loved and accepted and delighted in by God (Is 62:5) (and other people) based on some intrinsic value in ourselves.....like we deserve to be forgiven ?

We fall into the trap that the Jews did with their expectation that OF COURSE eternal life belongs to them and all the blessings in this life simply because they are 'Abraham's seed'
Being irreverent in our conduct while attending church and reading God's word while walking around cheapening grace by continuing in the flesh........(I mean, the cursing, coarse jesting, worrying merely about things of this earth and not about the HUGE need to maintain communion with our Father as if our life depended on it....because it does)
I'm sick of myself.....and the only hope I have is that with God's hand heavy upon me......and His giving me a desire to have real love for other people.......perhaps He has not given me over to my sin. I long to see real love in the church here.......but sadly - the depth that I long for and the kind of Christian living that is most earthy and dependant on God is SOOO freaking rare in our kiddy pool deep Christianity. Sure, I've seen it, and it was beautiful and drew me in, and made me jealous for my own heart to be more holy.........and honestly, being around people who do not compromise anything brings conviction that is super emotionally and spiritually exhausting.........but it's so worth it.

It's about that time. Today is the day of choosing whom we will serve........self or the Lord our God. (yes, I'm still a Calvinist, and yes, I still believe you need to choose)

And plead desperately that the Lord will give you the faith and the desire to choose Him.......since the desire of the flesh is against God....the Spirit gives faith and ability to believe and cherish righteousness and holiness - God Himself.
Praise Him for keeping you believing today.

In Christ Jesus,
Jen